Faith Transforms Fear into Fear of the Lord

Homily – Tenth Sunday in Ordinary Time (Year C)
June 5, 2016
St. Philip’s, Bemidji – 5:30 PM

Focus:              Faith transforms fear into fear of the Lord.
Function:        Arise from your fears!


Two mothers. Two sons.
Two widows. Two dead sons.

Two women filled with two emotions: grief and fear. Grief at the loss of their only sons; Fear of being alone and forgotten.

The widow at Zarapheth was living on the edge of poverty. Just prior to her son’s death, she was preparing to make a cake which she and her son would share, and then they would die.  They were living during a time of a severe famine and she had no more food.

The widow in the Gospel lost her son in his youth. Unlike the widow at Zarephath, she was accompanied by a large crowd at the passing of her son.  She was surrounded by her community.  Yet, I’m sure she had to wonder: Who will be with me a month from now?

Both of the widows had to ask the question: Will I be alone? Will I be forgotten?  Who will take care of me?

Along with their sons, the widows’ hope also died.

They were afraid.

Two widows.
Two dead sons.

Two sons raised to life.
Two sons given back to their mothers.
Two men of God recognized as prophets.

And fear seized them all.

Fear seized them all because they had never seen anything like this before. And they were in awe.  Wonder and awe at what God had done for these two women.  With their sons restored to them, their hope was restored to them as well.  The darkness of their fear and grief was dispelled and they were left with only awe – wonder and awe at God’s action in their lives.

God’s saving action in their lives transformed their fear into Fear of the Lord.  They went from fear to holy fear – wonder and awe. “What just happened?!” That holy fear that sends goosebumps down your spine and sends a chill through your chest as you realize you are standing in the presence of the Divine – in the presence of God himself!

A year or two ago, my mother went on a Marian pilgrimage to Lourdes, France. Over the years, many pilgrims have experienced healing by bathing in the water at the Lourdes shrine where Mary appeared.  My mom brought back with her several bottles of the Holy Water from the springs at Lourdes.

One day, several months after she had returned from the pilgrimage, she was sitting before the Lord in a time of adoration. As she prayed with the Scripture readings for the day, she looked at the Lord in the monstrance on the altar and prayed, “Lord, let me be your hands and feet this week.”

And then she heard something. It wasn’t an audible sound, but she heard a voice deep within.  “Give a bottle of the Lourdes water to Jeannette.”

Now Jeannette was a neighbor who had recently been diagnosed with cancer.

My mom was afraid. “How is she going to react?  I don’t know Jeannette THAT well.  I’m just supposed to walk up to her and say ‘Here, I know you were recently diagnosed with cancer and I think God wanted me to give this bottle of Holy Water to you?!’.  She’ll think I’m crazy!  She probably doesn’t even know about Lourdes!”

Fear.

Fear discourages us. It paralyzes us.  We can become dead in our fears – dead like the sons of the two widows.  We become unable to move – unable to respond in love to what God calls us to do.  

Yet God does not give us a spirit of fear, but rather a spirit of power and love and self-control. God gives us the gift of the Holy Spirit – his spirit – with its seven gifts.  When you were confirmed, the bishop prayed for the outpouring of the Holy Spirit with these words:

“Send your Holy Spirit upon them to be their helper and guide.

Give them the spirit of (1) wisdom and (2) understanding,
the spirit of (3) right judgement and (4) courage,
the spirit of (5) knowledge and (6) reverence.
Fill them with the spirit of (7) wonder and awe in your presence.

Wonder and awe in your presence. Holy Fear.  Holy Fear in the presence of the Lord.  Fear of the Lord.

So, my mom prayed. “Lord, if you want me to give this bottle of Holy Water to Jeannette, you have to make it as least embarrassing as possible.”

The next day is Sunday. As she and my dad leave the house for Mass, she shoves a bottle of holy water in her purse.  They arrive at the Church.  Jeannette is not there.  My mom breathes a sigh of relief.

Then, just before Mass begins, Jeannette and her husband walk into the Church. They sit right in front of my parents.  My mom’s heart begins to pound.  Fear.

Mass ends, and they leave their pew and walk to the back of the Church. My mom turns to my dad and says, “Go on ahead, I’ll be right there.  I need to give Jeannette something.”

She walks back to Jeannette, opens her purse, and gives her the bottle of Lourdes water. “Jeannette, I went a pilgrimage to Lourdes a few months ago, and I thought you might like to have a bottle of the Lourdes water.”

Jeannette has a look of shock on her face – a look of wonder. “I cannot believe this!”  Her eyes well up with tears.  “I’ve been reading about Lourdes and was just saying that I wish there was some way that I could get a bottle of that Lourdes water.  And now you just opened your purse and gave me one out of the blue!”

Later that week, she received an email from Jeannette’s daughter.  The closing line of the email read: “Thank you for being the hands and feet of Jesus.”

Brothers and sisters, faith transforms fear into fear of the Lord.

Faith allows us to see God’s action in the world.

Faith allows us to trust in Him, despite our fears.  He gives us his Holy Spirit so that we can push through our fears, and when we do, we see his presence clearly and we are filled with a Holy Fear.  We are filled with wonder and awe in the presence of the Lord.

And so, brothers and sisters, I offer to you today the words that Jesus offered to the son of the widow.

“I say to you, Arise!”

Arise from your fear of inadequacy at what you can or cannot do, and stand in awe of what God has done and what God can do through you, if only you respond with your “yes” to what he is asking of you!

Arise from your fear of failure and realize that it was the “failure” of the cross led to the true victory over sin and death!

Arise from your fear of not being accepted or loved and stand in wonder of the truth that you were created in love by a God who is love itself!

Arise!

Arise from your fear of Hell – your fear of being unforgivable or unlovable – your fear of rejection – and stand in wonder and awe of Christ’s mercy, love, and forgiveness poured out in the water and blood that flowed from His [point] pierced side on the cross to wash away your sins – stand in wonder and awe of his blood poured out for you that gives real power to the words uttered by his priests: “I absolve you of your sins…” “Take and eat, this is my body.” “Take and drink, this is my blood.”

Arise from your fear that keeps you from a lifelong commitment and stand in the holy fear of a life poured out in service to another, for it is only in making a gift of ourselves that we truly find ourselves!

Brothers and sisters, Arise!

Arise from your fears…
and stand in the fear of the Lord.

The Lord Gives Himself for You. Give Yourself to Him.

Homily – The Most Holy Body and Blood of Christ (Corpus Christi)
May 28, 2016
St. Charles, Pennington – 4:00 PM.

Focus:              The Lord gives himself for you.
Function:        Give yourself to him.


memorial day

This weekend, we celebrate Memorial Day. Tomorrow, across the country, people will gather in parks and auditoriums to remember and to give thanks for those who have offered their lives in service to our country.

Some gave of themselves to serve and never came home.

Others served and came back with wounds – wounds that have left scars in their bodies, minds, or spirits.

They gave their lives.
We received the freedom we enjoy today.
And so, we give an hour tomorrow to remember their sacrifice.

The time we give tomorrow seems so small and yet it means so much to those who served. By showing up tomorrow, we show that we remember. We express gratitude.

In the first reading, Abram has just returned from a battle. His nephew, Lot was living in Sodom when an enemy attacked. Lot and the people of Sodom, along with all of their goods, were captured by the enemy. Abram learned of this and set out to rescue Lot. He was victorious. Not only did he rescue his nephew from the clutches of the enemy, but he also brought back with Him the spoils of war – the goods that the enemy had captured from Sodom when they captured Lot.

Abram is returning from the battle when the priest Melchizedek meets him. Their caravans are loaded with the spoils of war. Melchizedek blesses God for giving Abram the victory, and he blesses Abram as well.

God gave Abram a great victory.
Abram received Lot and his goods back.
And so, Abram gave God, through the priest, a tenth of everything.

In today’s Gospel, the people are hungry. Jesus desires to satisfy their need. He turns to His disciples: “Give them some food yourselves.”

The disciples give everything they have, but it’s not much.
Jesus receives their meager offering.
Jesus gives his blessing, and thousands are fed.

Today is the feast of “The Most Holy Body and Blood of Christ.” At the last supper, Jesus took bread, said the blessing, broke it, and said, “Take and eat…This is my body which will be given up for you.” Then he took the chalice: “Take and drink…This is my blood – my blood which will be poured out for you for the forgiveness of sins. Do this in memory of me.”

The Crucifixion - Leon Bonnat

The Crucifixion – Leon Bonnat

On Calvary, Christ held nothing back. He holds nothing back. Christ gives Himself – his very self. He gives everything – all that he is. Body. Blood. Soul. Divinity.

At this altar, we stand at the foot of Calvary and receive the gift he gives. And what does he give?

He gives his life for your life,
his death for your death,
his innocence for your sin.

Christ gives Himself for you. He gives everything for you.

Christ gives his Body and Blood.
We receive the pledge of eternal life.

What are you going to give to him?

Will you give yourself to him?

Will you give him your shame and your sins so that he can bath them in the ocean of his mercy?

Will you give him your hurts and your grudges so that you can be free to love generously?

Will you give food to the hungry and drink to the thirsty even as he satisfies your hunger and quenches your thirst in this banquet?

Will you give him your worries and anxieties, your pain and suffering, your sins and failings? Can you give them up to him on the altar of sacrifice as you receive the pledge of your salvation in the simple form of bread and wine, a Body broken and Blood outpoured?

Brothers and sisters, Christ receives what we give to him and he blesses it. He blesses what we offer and multiplies it, making it bear abundant fruit.

He gives Himself for you.

Will you give yourself to Him?

God is Present Even When He Seems to be Absent

Homily – Thursday of the Sixth Week of Easter, Year II – May 5, 2016
First Homily as a Deacon in the STA Chapel – Saint Meinrad Seminary, St. Meinrad, IN.

Focus:              God is present even when He seems to be absent.
Function:        Remember what God has done so as to strengthen your hope in what God is doing.


St. Mary's - Red Lake

A little while and you will no longer see me
And again a little while and you will see me

The poorest area within the Diocese of Crookston is the Red Lake Nation, which is a sovereign nation for the Red Lake Band of Chippewa Indians. Drug use is high.  Literacy levels are low.  Many children are born addicted to heroin or with fetal alcohol syndrome.  The crime rate is high.  The unemployment rate is over 50%.  The average lifespan is 45 years.

In the midst of the Red Lake Nation sits St. Mary’s Mission. The mission includes the parish and a small school.  It is making a difference.  Most of the kids at the school can read at or above their grade level.  Because they find a sense of belonging at the mission – a sense of family – most of the kids will not join a gang in the future.

Fr. Jerry Rogers is the pastor of St. Mary’s Mission. As you can imagine, it is a very difficult assignment.  Resources are scarce.  Most families cannot afford to pay the $425/year tuition.  Fr. Jerry works hard to raise funds so that the mission can continue.

A little while and you will no longer see me.

Last week, someone broke into Fr. Jerry’s office and stole his wallet and the Sunday collection, totaling $530. That must have made him so angry.  He’s working his tail off, he has virtually no resources to work with, and even the small amount that he does have to work with is stolen.  At some point, he had to ask himself – “What’s the use?  Why not give up?”

And again a little while and you will see me.

Then there was a knock at the door. A woman comes in.  “Father, I heard that the collection was stolen, I want to give you something…”  She puts a handful of change on his desk and leaves.  Half an hour later, a man comes in.  “Father, we don’t want you to think that we’re all like this.  It’s not a lot, but we want you to have it”.  He puts a handful of dollar bills and some change on the table.    This goes on for the next two days – people come into Fr. Jerry’s office at different times and give handfuls of change and dollar bills.  $2000.

And again a little while and you will see me.

Fr. Jerry goes to DMV to renew driver’s license, since it was in his wallet. The woman behind the counter says “That’ll be $16.75.”  That’s when Fr. Jerry realizes that he doesn’t have his wallet – it was stolen, after all, and he didn’t bring his checkbook.  How is he going to pay the fee?  Then he remembers that one of the people had given him money while was out of his office, and he had put it in his pocket for the time being.  He empties his pockets on the counter and they add it up.  You guessed it – exactly $16.75 – to the penny.  The DMV employee was moved to tears.

God is the one who makes our work bear fruit. He teaches us to put our trust in Him and not in ourselves.  God is present.  God is present even when it seems He is absent.

He takes a seemingly hopeless situation, and brings great good out of it. He stirs the hearts of people to give generously.  He turns the one stolen Sunday collection into the equivalent of four Sunday collections.  He enkindles faith in the heart of a woman working at a local DMV office.  He brings hope to a humble priest by reminding him that he is not alone in his ministry.

He teaches a baby deacon to depend on him, even when that means scrapping his carefully prepared homily at 7:00 PM and starting over.

A little while and you will no longer see me
And again a little while and you will see me

Brothers and sisters, we are called to depend on him and not on ourselves.

Remember what God has done so as to strengthen your hope in what God is doing.
Remember what God has done so as to strengthen your hope in what God will do.

He will bring good out of evil. He will shine light in the darkness.

He will bring life out of death.

God Wants To Be Your Best Friend

First Homily as a Deacon
Sixth Sunday of Easter, Year C
First Communion Sunday
May 1, 2016
St. Joseph’s, Brooks – 8:00 AM

Focus:          God wants to be your best friend and come to stay with you.
Function:    Be ready for God to come and stay with you.


John Honiotes Deacon OrdinationTwo weeks ago, my friend Stephen and I traveled to Joliet, IL for the diaconate ordination of a good friend. It was a great celebration.  The Church was packed and the reception lasted for hours.  John preached his first homily the next day, and he set the bar pretty high.

I was honored to attend the ordination of my friend, but I was particularly honored that John invited us to stay with him and his family while we were in town. I was honored because, while John is a good friend, I also knew this was going to be a busy weekend for him and his family, and that a lot of people would want to see him.  I did not want him to feel as though he needed to entertain guests during this time, and yet, I looked forward to the time we would be able to spend together.

I was struck by the hospitality of his family. I remember pulling up to their house.  His mom met us at the door, gave us a hug, welcomed us in, and asked if we needed any help with our bags.  Then, she offered us a beer and asked if we were hungry – she had shredded beef in a crockpot for us whenever we got hungry.  The air mattresses were set up in the basement for the three of us.  She enlisted our help in getting a few things ready for the weekend.  It was a joy to be able to stay with John – to talk with him, to pray with him, and to just spend time with him in the ordinary moments of this extraordinary time in his life.

I didn’t feel like a guest in their home. I felt welcomed.  I felt like I belonged.  I felt like I was part of the family.

God wants to be your best friend. He wants to come to come and stay with you.  He wants to come and stay with you at your house.  In fact, you are his house.  You are the dwelling place of God.  Listen again to the words of the Gospel:

Whoever loves me will keep my word.
And my Father will love him.
And we will come to him and make our dwelling with him.

Jesus wants to come and make his dwelling with you. He wants to make his home in you.  He wants to come and spend time with you – to know you – to be in friendship with you.  He wants to be your best friend.

To the four of you who are making your first communion today:

When you have a best friend, you want to spend a lot of time with that person. You want to invite him over to your house – to spend the night at your house.  So, you prepare.  You get things ready.  You do all of your chores without complaining.  You make your bed and pick up your room.  You listen to Mom and Dad.  You are even nice to your brothers and sisters!  You get things ready so that your friend will feel welcomed.

When your friend comes over, you spend a lot of time with him. You talk with him and play with him.  When he spends the night at your house, he sleeps in your room.  And what’s the best part about having your best friend spend the night at your house – in your room?  Going to bed early, right?  No!  You usually stay up late talking to each other, laughing with each other.  You share your toys with him.  You eat your meals with him.  You spend time together and get to know each other better.  You invite him into your daily life, your daily routine – the normal moments of your everyday life.  You invite your friend over to your house, and when he comes to your house often, you become closer friends – almost like brothers.  He is welcomed in your house.  He becomes like a member of the family.

God wants to be your best friend. And today, today is the day.  He comes to stay at your house.  Jesus, who is fully present in the bread we break and the cup we share at this altar, comes into your house and stays with you.  He comes to live with you.  And if you allow him to live within – if you allow him to become your friend, you will be like that holy city coming down out of Heaven – that holy city that “gleamed with the splendor of God”, because God lived within it.

You’ve prepared for this day. You’ve made your room ready for him, and now he is on his way.  He will soon be here, right here on this altar.  Welcome him in when he comes.  Do everything you can to make sure he enjoys his stay.  Treat him with kindness.  Treat his other friends with kindness.  Love him and keep his word, and he will come and make his dwelling with you.  When you come up for Communion and receive him at the door of your lips, welcome him into the room of your heart.  Tell him, “Jesus, come and make your home in my heart.”

Invite him back again next week and the week after that. Carry him with you in your heart during the week and prepare for him to come and stay with you again next Sunday.  When your room gets messy – and it will get messy – when the dirty clothes pile up on the floor of your heart – let him help you clean it up by going to Confession.  So often we feel like we need to make everything look good on the outside, but it’s about the inside.  Get the inside right and the outside will follow.  Have a friendship with Jesus and you will become like Jesus.  Become like Jesus and you will act like Jesus because of your love for him.  The reason why I didn’t feel like a guest at John’s house was because he invited me into what was happening.  We spent time together in the ordinary events of the day, and our friendship deepened.

Celebrate your second, third, and fourth Holy Communion. Invite him to stay with you week after week after week.  Let him become your best friend.

And someday, someday, he will invite you to come and stay with him at his home – in Heaven.

Treasures in Heaven

Reflection for the House of Saint Matthew
Saint Meinrad Seminary & School of Theology
October 6, 2015

treasure1Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and decay destroy, and thieves break in and steal. But store up treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor decay destroys, nor thieves break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there also will your heart be. 
– Matthew 6:19-21

Our treasures reveal our hearts.

We invest our time, our energy, and our money into those things which are valuable to us. We invest our hearts into our treasures. If we want to know what our treasures are, we need only to look to where we are investing our time, our energy, and our money. We look to what our hearts are set on.

Our treasures reveal our hearts. What are our treasures? What are our hearts set on?

Last week I was praying with this Scripture passage during Adoration. I was thinking of my own treasures, and what they reveal about my heart. I was asking what my heart should be set on. What are the treasures that will last? The virtues. My relationships with others. My relationship with the Lord.

The Lord.

I gazed upon the Lord on the altar with this question, and a new question emerged.

Where is the Lord’s heart?

I pondered this for several minutes. Then, the answer came to me. I was staring at the answer.

His heart is on the altar.

His heart is in the monstrance. His heart is alone in the tabernacle in the late hours of the night and the early hours of the morning, waiting for someone to visit. His heart is broken in the bread that is fractured upon the altar. His heart bleeds into the chalice held by the hands of the priest as he utters those words, “This is my Blood”. Why?

Because he is like us in all things but sin. And like us, Jesus invests his heart in his treasure.

He invests his heart in you.

His heart, hidden under the appearance of bread, is now hidden in you who received him at Mass today. His heart, pierced on the cross by the soldier’s lance, bled into the chalice from which you drank.

For where your treasure is, there also will your heart be.

Our treasures reveal our hearts. His heart is hidden in his treasures. And Jesus, as God, stores up treasures that will last. By investing his heart in you, he is storing up treasures in Heaven.